Thursday, 25 September 2008

Part #12a

I'm getting help.

I have made an appointment to go to see a private counsellor. My GP recommended her and we have just given up and said, Sod the cost, it has to be done.

Do you know what forced me into it? Ian and I were walking to the shops together and each step got more and more painful. The pain in my legs was reverberating up to my spine and I thought my heart would burst with the effort I was putting my body through.

As soon as I got back, I found her number on the leaflet and left a message.

Within minutes, she had called me back.

And she sounded lovely. A warm, kind approachable lady - competent, switched on and knowledgeable.

And for the first time today, I have smiled.

And we have both cried with relief.

This is the start of my recovery.

13 comments:

Mars said...

that's amazing :)

Charles Parsnip said...

Words can't explain how proud I am.

I know it's just one step, but it's a step forward.

I love you darling.

x

Keli said...

I've been reading the last few posts and I think you're making strides in the right direction. I am so happy to hear you've found a private counselor. I feel confident that she will be worth the investment. I'm willing to bet that if you made a list, you'd find a great many people who believe in you. All you have to do now is believe in yourself!

Linda and her Twaddle said...

You cannot do it all on your own. Going to someone who is not emotionally involved is a good thing. A very big step in the right direction.

Karen ^..^ said...

Oh!!! Thank GOD!!! I am so happy and proud of my friend ANNIE!!! Yay!!!!!!

You are the strongest woman I know. I know what a huge step this is. You are worth the extra money, and more. I am so proud of you, and so glad she sounds so nice. You seem to have found a great counselor.

Much love to you, you brave girl.

Many hugs, too.

Lexy. said...

Good luck!

Therapy for me has always been a double edged sword. There's a part of me that wanted to be the perfect patient, but a bigger part that wanted to prove that I was the best anorexic, therefore making me worse.

Once I let go of that part, and applied what she was saying to me, it amazing the changes I saw.

I hope it works out for you.

may_be said...

thats absolutely fantastic! rading that has made my day brighter, just knowing that you are finding help and taking this step. congratulations :)

floramel said...

Congradulations! I'm rooting for you!

Miss Scarlett said...

It seems to me you have already made several steps in the right direction. Acknowledging, accepting, and working towards healing was your first step. As a child of therapy (yeah cheesy, but that is truly how I feel) I can promise you that were it not for my wonderfully supportive, kind, generous, and non-judgmental therapist I would not be here today. Someone objective who is ALWAYS looking out for YOUR best interests is truly priceless.

Annie T - ex Agnes Mildew said...

I'll just say thank you to all of you for your well wishes. It was a lovely treat to moderate these comments and made me feel very grateful to have such wonderful support.

Bob J said...

When I asked what the adult task of an abused person might be, I suspect that this may be one of the key ellements involved in enguaging that task.

Step by step they say.

Bob J said...

When I asked what the adult task of an abused person might be, I suspect that this may be one of the key ellements involved in enguaging that task.

Step by step they say.

karen said...

Oh, how I am hoping for you that you hit it off with this counselor. This is a great step! Wonderful news.