tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post2608050388307338732..comments2023-07-26T13:30:56.015+01:00Comments on Annie's Rexia: Part #21Agnes Mildewhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851062037702982772noreply@blogger.comBlogger4125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-16748482527526028222008-10-16T04:35:00.000+01:002008-10-16T04:35:00.000+01:00This is the first moment I have had to comment on ...This is the first moment I have had to comment on this post. When I think of how I felt many years ago (aged 17 to 22) when I was thin, it really validated me and gave me a weird control that was liberating. If I was thin my father crowed about it, my friends praised me, boyfriend at the time admired me. I could do something that was nigh impossible for the average person - I could control my food intake and weight. It was a success story to me. I knew I felt ashamed and disgusted with my weakness when I binged and thus vomited to rid myself of the shame (then binged because I was desperately hungry). The more I went to the toilet, the more food I was sending out of my body, the thinner I felt, the better I was in my head. The sight of a rib showing under my skin was deeply satisfying.<BR/><BR/>When I think about how tied in the whole approval thing was with the eating it makes me sad. Even now, my level of happiness is deeply affected by by the size of my bum or the jiggle of my thighs. I don't believe I shall ever, ever be able to relax fully around even the healthiest of foods. When I read this post I just feel for you. I really do.<BR/><BR/>If it is any comfort, whilst the ED feeling never really goes away, in the end overcoming it is possible.lindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05392205573326695683noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-23143338708946723942008-10-14T20:25:00.000+01:002008-10-14T20:25:00.000+01:00the feelings of unworthiness is so familiar. i bel...the feelings of unworthiness is so familiar. i believe that is honestly the hardest thing to get over and get rid off. and i'm saying that without an ED. so i can't even begin to imagine how much more it is for you.Emhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/01267643422775549142noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-79581175448814819002008-10-14T18:04:00.000+01:002008-10-14T18:04:00.000+01:00first of all, i think you're hungry! that will mak...first of all, i think you're hungry! that will make anyone snappy. in the "glory" days of my anorexia,i was the snarliest person alive. i especially hated anyone who put me in a position where i was supposed to eat, especially when i was really hungry. second, it is really hard admitting to an ED. people get sooooooooo uncomfortable. although i have one anorexic friend who minds that no one's noticing she's getting scrawnier and scrawnier. and finally, i do indeed believe that anorexia is the hardest. if you can't eat, you can't sustain life. when you're bulimic, at least you do get some nutrition. and there are a lot of other reasons i think it's the hardest, but i'm taking up a lot of space on your blog. take care!!!!I Hate to Weighthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/17241064340434705588noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-62360179000326501102008-10-14T14:36:00.000+01:002008-10-14T14:36:00.000+01:00This post made so much sense. It all goes back to ...This post made so much sense. It all goes back to the negative stories and actions from when we were in our formative years. Unlearning it all is very difficult. functioning in spite of these negative stories is doable, but not easy. somewhere along the line, something has to suffer. I am pulling for you, Annie. I pray for you every day. Lots of love,<BR/>KKaren ^..^https://www.blogger.com/profile/05197114237324824217noreply@blogger.com