tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post2271926756193642648..comments2023-07-26T13:30:56.015+01:00Comments on Annie's Rexia: Part #3Agnes Mildewhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/09851062037702982772noreply@blogger.comBlogger7125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-33212394948240004382008-09-17T15:25:00.000+01:002008-09-17T15:25:00.000+01:00Karen: Thank you for such an insightful comment. A...Karen: Thank you for such an insightful comment. And very supportive, too. I do, greatly, appreciate your words - and everyone else's, too.<BR/>I saw a shocking poster not so long ago which divulged the odds of winning the Lottery. It was something ridiculous like 1 in 10,000 - just for £10.00. It then went on to say that mental health problems affect 1 in 8 people. So, we're all playing a Lottery in some ways. I know very few people who haven't suffered with something, at some point - be it Post Natal Depression, Anxiety, Manic Depression, Self-harm, ED, low self-esteem...the list is endless, isn't it? I guess it depends on how deeply it affects us, how soon we can get a grip on it (before it gets a grip on us) and how we admit to it before taking any further action.<BR/>All I know is that I have admitted this for years and years and still don't seem to be getting anywhere. <BR/>But I have to agree with you (and Linda) to write this out might just be the best thing I have ever done. It's certainly better than the rotten drugs I have been prescribed!<BR/>And, HexMyEx is still a great catharsis for me. I do enjoy writing it again now, although I had my 'block' for a while. A bit of humour provides my balance.<BR/>And I definitely need that!<BR/>Thanks again!Agnes Mildewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09851062037702982772noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-18216522448647066862008-09-17T13:24:00.000+01:002008-09-17T13:24:00.000+01:00This was painful to read. When you've read someone...This was painful to read. When you've read someone's blog for a year, and enjoyed it immensely, as I have, you develop quite a relationship with the characters. I can tell you that you are no fraud. I can tell you that anorexia and bulimia in no way define you or who you are. Your true self still shines through, and your true self is beautiful, lovely, and good. This post brought tears to my eyes, because I have felt the same way you do so many times. What you are going through is so relatable. No, I never suffered with an eating disorder, but have felt self loathing more often than not. My affliction is surrounding myself with people who are not good for me, always has been. <BR/><BR/>People will read this and wonder, why not just stop this cycle of self abuse? They won't be able to relate unless they have been through a similar experience. I can tell you that when my sister suffered from this horrific affliction, I had a very hard time understanding it. I had a very easy time understanding WHY she felt the way she did, as I felt that way too. I just didn't take it out on my body the way she did. I took it out on my soul. what happens for eating disorder sufferers is that it steals your soul while it eats away your body. And yes, I fully beleive you were trying to in a sense, disappear. <BR/><BR/>What you are doing takes enormous courage, but with the risk, you are opening yourself up to so much that is wonderful. This really CAN help you. Writing and putting it out there for the world to see takes all the stigma away from this. You will come to find that you aren't alone, and that people, even those who've never met you, genuinely care about you due to having formed a relationship with you through this and your other blog. You really are quite a woman, and I am so glad I came to find your blog. Keep up the good work, and may you recover very soon. Take care. <BR/><BR/>The biggest hurdle is to unlearn all the negative stories your bitch mother told you all during your young life. This is not as easy as it seems, as it came at a time where we are such little sponges and are in learning mode. This is what I am having the hardest time with. Once I finish that, I'll be fine. Reading "The four agreements" helps too. I read it often.Karen ^..^https://www.blogger.com/profile/05197114237324824217noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-39997808881118516552008-09-17T12:59:00.000+01:002008-09-17T12:59:00.000+01:00Anonymous: Thank you so much for your visit and fo...Anonymous: Thank you so much for your visit and for leaving a lovely, kind comment. <BR/>I am sorry to read that you have been affected by anorexia, too, albeit with a loved one. <BR/>It is a rarely acknowledged fact that family and friends also suffer the effects of an eating disorder and whereas there is little help for the sufferer, there is next to nothing for the carer.<BR/>Thank you again for your visit and please do keep returning.Agnes Mildewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09851062037702982772noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-24226304778100434262008-09-17T12:34:00.000+01:002008-09-17T12:34:00.000+01:00I don't know if commenting here is for better or w...I don't know if commenting here is for better or worse. Yet when I read that you wanted to be liked by any 'visitors' to the blog I felt I should. <BR/><BR/>I wanted to commend you on your honesty and your strength. I'm familiar with what anorexia can do to someone, having supported a loved one through it again and again, and to hear the raw emotion and force in your words has brought me near tears here. <BR/><BR/>Thank you for finding it within yourself to share your story, an I hope you and your husband find the peace you deserve.<BR/><BR/>Sorry for the random comment. I almost felt like I was spying if I didn't say anything.... if that makes any sense.<BR/><BR/>Thank you again... really.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-22577119431208876012008-09-17T11:53:00.000+01:002008-09-17T11:53:00.000+01:00Charles: I don't think I could do any of this with...Charles: I don't think I could do any of this without your help, love and support. Thank you.<BR/><BR/>Linda: Thanks for your comment - and the lovely emails you have sent. One of these days that small girl will be exorcised, alongside all of her demons. I just hope it doesn't take too long.Agnes Mildewhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09851062037702982772noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-76390933588855405222008-09-17T11:40:00.000+01:002008-09-17T11:40:00.000+01:00Agnes: Many, many years ago I would go to a local ...Agnes: Many, many years ago I would go to a local cheesecake shop, buy a huge cake, eat it and then vomit it up. The sight of a container of Ford Pills just makes my skin crawl. This post reminded me of things that have been semi forgotten. That odd lonliness and shame that goes with it. I just cannot tell you how important it is to just write it out and take a step back to look at it objectively. You will hopefully be able to one day put away that small, needy girl who lives in you and pulls you down and let the brave 38 year old woman come out and run with life.lindahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/05392205573326695683noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1435907928209310248.post-37715964611425840122008-09-17T11:19:00.000+01:002008-09-17T11:19:00.000+01:00I think that you are so brave in getting all of th...I think that you are so brave in getting all of this out, and down onto (internet) paper.<BR/><BR/>Whilst I have heard most of this, it is a good place for me to come and remind myself of the pain and suffering you have had to endure over the years. Some of us could never imagine the horrors you have had to put up with, and can never possibly imagine the pain you are going through.<BR/><BR/>This takes great strength and courage. Believe in yourself Annie and keep it up.<BR/><BR/>xIan Thttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09936577687295828181noreply@blogger.com